15 September 2014
It’s hard to say how “Love” can cherish or ruin someone’s life. We can’t be ascertained that when we say that we are moving on it means it’s all over, but it’s not. The feeling stays and it might hurt by denying. Love is a mere word, but the best yet the worst feeling you may possess. It is something we could never give up so easily. It takes time to heal and it takes time to finally put an end.
I know more about you more than I thought I could learn from the other. I have felt your pain and your wonders. I have well-informed about your best and worst. Yet, though I learned something I thought, a reason I hated a person, however I can’t come to hate or even dislike you. Every time I learn something from you, I am craving for more. Even sometimes knowing something about leads me to hate, but I can’t feel hating you. I am accepting all of you nothing more I ask from you.
You are my friend and I will be yours.
If everything is right and just, I am staying beside you even the odds against it. I’ll be still your friend, I hope that you are the same to me.
One day in the future, we will separate our lives. Change comes next. You and I may change, but I won’t regret anything. As I look back the past that I am with you, I can reminisce the memories we had as a good friend.
Right now, all I want you is to be on my side my dear friend. That’s all I ask for, nothing more, nothing less.
11 September 2014
Today, I was enlightened by the truth hidden in my eyes.
It’s already confirmed. I no longer need to be confused anymore.
Thanks to my beloved friend! ❤
10 September 2014
You are like a drug even if no matter how much i tried to give up on you yet my heart still wanting you.
I used to imagine to be with you. I am happy. I am fine. You are more than a friend but I am afraid to make you my lover, because I am not your happiness.
Hoping that it’s only a daydream and sooner i’ll wake up from this insanity without having any memories.
Why do I need to be like this, I am not even wishing for it. Why I do keep hurting myself for the same reason? I am sick of it and still keeping on it.
I no longer need help from others, all I need is to start helping myself.
© photo by Adriane Dizon
07 September 2014
It was started back then…
A year ago in February, you caught my eyes accidentally. In a way that I didn’t expect.
I opened my mail and I saw your face competing with my friend in a contest. I was about to vote for you, but then I saw my friend’s name, so she got my vote instead of you. Observing your face, made me think that you can’t be my friend nor an acquaintance. Your face seems so hard to be with, so strict and unhappy.
After few months later, I met you in a short time. I talked with you a bit and we laughed. It seemed so good to be with you, but it didn’t last.
A few months later, after the first meeting, I got a chance to be friend with you because of our common friend. I was afraid to be close to you for some reason. Well, it’s not an odd reason, though. I fear to like you the way I liked my best friend before.
Time passes by, and I didn’t notice that I appreciate more and more.
I felt something strange when I am with you. It’s hard to accept this feeling since you are my best friend and you are something that I can’t never be called “mine”.
Today, I told you a “half-secret” about my feeling. It wasn’t clear, I know you didn’t even get the point. Still, I am glad the way you react to it.
Now, I am still with you. Keeping those feelings in my heart makes me hard to forget you. As long as I am with you, I can’t assure to change the feeling of having you near me.
Yet, I am trying harder… Harder enough to let you go…
Trusting myself and letting myself be free..
03 September 2014
From this day onward, I am setting you free. I hope you will be happy for the one that you choose. I hope I will be happy too, for you and for the freedom I am turning over to me.
Please be happy and contented then I’ll be happy for you.
Tears… but its for the better.
27 August 2014
"You may run into a great deal of frustration if you try to fight the current circumstances, Cancer. The key is to take whatever situation you’re in and make the best of it. Whining and moping about your position won’t make things better. You have great gifts to be proud of and thankful for, so don’t throw them away by thinking that they have no outlet. Create your own reality".
Exactly, right for today!
22 August 2014
They said that distance doesn’t matter if you love the person.
Well, it’s likely to be true. Conversely, not for the others.
It always depends to the couples on how much love and trust they have for each other.
I like you, but you didn’t even know.
I have been wanting you to be on my side, but I know it will never happen.
You are so near yet so far. Your presence is out of my reach, but when I started dreaming of you, you become so close to me.
Sometimes, I wish that you and I live together in our dreams. The feeling of having you near me, will just be left in our dreamland not in the real world.
In view of the fact that dreaming of you is the hardest thing I can’t never give up…